I was just reading over my old entries to remind myself of all the crud I keep wanting to do.  And you know what?  Having these thoughts written down is actually useful.  For example, I would not have remembered all the ideas I had for that RT warfare game, nor would I have remembered my ill-fated Forth army list program.

I'm so incredibly fickle in my hobbies that these things usually come and go, and I'm just left with the vague feeling that I've forgotten something that seemed like a really good idea once.  In retrospect, these things may or may not still seem like good ideas.  But at least they're not forgotten.

I've done a little thinking about why I'm so fickle, and it comes down to a very simple fact:  it's hard to stay focused on hobby stuff when you have kids.  Honestly, if I had even a week away from work and family I would be able to get a massive amount of my "hobby backlog" cleared out.  But that's never going to happen, so I'm still trying to find a way to integrate my life and my playtime.  I'm still not there yet after 5 years, but maybe I'll work it out some day.

Or maybe I'll keep going on as I am right now, chipping away at small projects here and there but never really finishing anything until I inevitably die, leaving a huge tangled mess of half finished projects for my kids to figure out what to do with.

I wonder if either of them will find it ironic.